I think this week was kind of just a normal and humble week. I didn't really do anything super extra out-of-the-ordinary. And nothing really happened either.
What I did have though were a few humbling moments.
I have been wondering why I haven't seen any miracles yet. Like the ones you hear missionaries tell in their homecoming talks. I was frustrated because I have been out here close to 6 months now (wow, 1/3 of my mission!) and still everything is pretty normal.
I went on exchanges this last Friday and the sister training leader and I just got punted all day. We didn't teach a single lesson. We went all around town and nothing. So we went to dinner and we were sitting there and she was telling me some incredible stories about miracles she had seen on her mission. Like BIG miracles that you have to know the Lord had a hand in. And I was invigorated by the stories, but at the same time I was a little envious.
What have I been doing wrong that is keeping me from those miracles?
I then had brought to mind the rubber band theory. When shooting rubber bands we stretch and stretch them back and back. And then when we think we can't stretch them any further, we let go, launching them forward at stinging speeds. It's the same thing with trials. When we are having a lot of hard trials and things seem to keep getting in our way of progression, that's us being pulled back, stretching us to limits we didn't know we had. And it's usually painful. But once the Lord lets go, that stretching causes the projection to be much stronger than had He only stretched us a little.
I am just waiting for Heavenly Father to release.
I am so thankful for everything I am learning here on the mission. And most of it has been a lesson in endurance. But in the end, that's what we are supposed to do.
So I am grateful for all this practice:)